I hate it here. I hate this place. I hate these people. I don't wanna f***ing heal if I have to be in here. I want some crank. But I try to forget it because it separates me from Alaina. Besides a crazy kid, I'm the only one under age 70 that's here. Nursing home/rehab. It sucks. I hate it here. Alaina isn't allowed to write to me anymore because of her dumba** parents but what the f*** ever. "Mom" put me in this s*** hole. I hate that b****. My little bro has OCD. She wants to think he's so d*** perfect. I hate him too. I hope he comes to this place of h*** so he can feel like a caged animal. They'll act like they're helping but I can see in their eyes that they are ready for me to die as if I were one of these old people here. So to Mom and Alec: GO TO H***!
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Dear Sara Bear,
You'll see your big bro pretty soon. You're so pretty. Mommy sends pictures of you and that b******* Alec. Sorry for the language Sarah Bear. Don't tell Mommy I used that word. That's a no no word. We don't use no no words, remember? Big Toddy will be out soon to see you. I've gotten bigger. Taller. Alaina doesn't write me anymore because of her parents but I know you will. I'll see you soon my pretty Sarah Bear. Don't worry. Do you miss me? Do you still love me? I still love you. I look at your picture every night. Your picture makes me feel good. I'll see you soon pretty Sarah Bear. Watch for me baby Sarah Bear. I'm coming soon. When I see you we'll talk and laugh and play games like we used to.
                                                              Write me back,
                                                                                  Big Toddy.